Everyday has been a drag for me.. Its horrible horrible horrible!!! Jus as an computer without a cooler fan, there has been nobody i can turn to support. Day after day i have to live in my own world, no one i can turn to for emotional support.. Everywhere i go i have to showcase a brave front, yet underneath me i am drained.. The burden is massive and i am losing myself. How am i to console others when i myself cannot settle my own emotions. It is now when i really missed the times where my parents stayed with me and is always there to nag on me. At least i have someone i can pour my thoughts to. At least i do not need to lead a life at the top, a spot where everyone else turn to yet when i turn back, i am all alone. I have turned solemn and dull, shadowed in nothing but a blurred future, not knowing how it will be like. How much i am anticipating for the next month, where i can finally prepare for my next phase of life, away from all i am facing now.. Sure there will be regrets and longing for certain things, yet i will really go into a mental breakdown facing all these for any longer. No one understands, no one relates to me, no one to give me hope. I will pull on, but how long??? I am not sure.. =(

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